Does anyone read this...

Does it really matter?

probably not. It is only here as an outlet for any particularly childish idiotic self indulgent, self involved narcissistic drivel I wish to force into an arena known as the Internet which is already swamped by much the same.

I work a job I hate to earn money I don't need to live a life I don't enjoy....

I am beginning to struggle to see the logic of this equation.

But what should I do?

Run, I could go to Barcelona live with some Friends, Bremen! I speak a little french so that is an option. What would I achieve though?

Am I capable of achieving anything? I am certainly capable but I am beginning to fear that that is the limit to my talents.

A corkscrew is capable of opening a wine bottle but it does not mean it is not replaceable.

I think I need a corkscrew and a wine bottle.

Work is slowly grinding me to a halt and everything I used to care about seems pointless.

No one cares and everyone is happier to bury their heads in the sand and accept "hopeless emptiness of this existence".

I think might be too.

PS anyone who does read this my questions are all rhetorical and answers will be frowned upon as I previously stated this is more sick bucket to vent my spleen into than a quest for answers.

Here is some more shit I wrote;

An intricate system of pulleys and weights,

the careful construct dedicated to balance.

Rational

and.

Reasonable,
i can guess its every movement and

manipulate its position.

Gleaming like brass.

But holding the burden not creating it.

Cargo more valuable than the sum of its parts.

Centered, pivotal, practical.

In my peripheral vision i can imagine nothing more



Aspirational